One hundred and forty eight
I think I’ve bad self-esteem. Bad in the sense that no matter how much someone praises me or whatsoever, I’ll feel that he/she is lying. Guess this feeling kinda sucks. I don’t wna have this kinda of an image but after things piled up in 2011, I just want things to go smooth, no friendship problems, good grades, good impressions on people.
It’s kinda weird I know but I feel that 2012 is gna be a good year. No more guy bullshit, put that behind. It’s all over, this feeling is great. It’s the kind of feeling where friends try to avoid talking about him and I can truthfully tell them that hey, it’s fine to say his name and all because I’m over him. I’m really sorry to my classmates who had to put up with all my nonsense, the constant mood swings and all, and I wna thank you guys for being by me! Especially Valerie!! It’s like no matter how much shit I throw at her she just bears it all and tries to calm me down and she ALWAYS succeeds. It’s a blessing to have a friend like her. Also not to mention danny, nad, jaz and georgy, who have still remained by me <: also i kinda happy got into the top but feel bad because lynette didn there was a rumor that spreading around said wanted to her off team and all this is like somewhat happening swear really want anyone don actually shocked bits in gna cherish opportunity do well k thoughts post today just puking out my keeping it too smotheing bye>
